Life?

Life's hard
Everything is literally going against me right now
Everything I do
Career
Dream
Love
Money
What's next?

I've got myself into something I really don't know what to do
From what it seems,
I'm the bad guy
I'm the one hurting people
But when you look behind all these, you'll find something so much different
Everything I do is for the rights of everyone
Yet everyone thinks that I'm the bad guy

But that's me I guess?
Me and my so-called kind heart
I'm hurting myself for you guys ;')

Hopefully things get better
I'm sorry for those that I hurt
But if you're one of them and reading this,
I think you guys deserve to know that,
There's a reason behind everything I do

I'm sorry
Put the blame on me

My Life's A Mess

Sometimes I really do wonder
Why do I hold on so much to my ego?
What's up with my believing?
And me chasing my dream?
Is it possible?

Until today I still chose to believe
Because that's what keeps me alive
But that's also what makes everything so hard

Seriously?
Living the dream?
It's really a long hard road
And I'm still struggling to get through
I never wanna walk back to the reality

But somehow
Is it worth it?
Sometimes I'm doubting myself, what would happen in the end?
Would I really be happy when I achieve that so-called dream?
What if I regret everything?

Another Update ~

Hey guys
It's me again
And I'm so sorry for the lack of updates!

Life is getting tough on me
I've kinda lost my direction and I don't know what should I go for.
If I go for my dream, money is a problem.
But if I go for the money, I'm not happy!
What should I do guys?

Seriously life's a mystery :/
By the way guys I'm just writing whatever is on my mind so this post might be not-so-organized
Forgive me :(

Guys
Is it possible to literally use music / playing as a band to make a living in MALAYSIA?

New Hope New Life

Hey
As you guys know this blog is kinda dead
And I really try my best to keep it alive
Sorry!
I don't really have time for myself too now
I'm busy with my business, training, band and yes.. life itself.

Everything I do is for the future now
And hopefully everything go smoothly
One day I'll achieve everything that I need
I believe :)



And yeah
I miss Vaz.. so much
Everything I do I think of him :(
Sigh~~ ...
This blog is full of him..
Memories.. I never realized that those days were actually the best..
How much I wish I can live like that again.. With him beside me

Guys
For those that are still following my blog
I appreciate it
Believing something fully is something powerful
And I believe in everything I do
Because I know I can and I know it will.

Picking Up The Pieces

I've suddenly realized that I've neglected this blog for a long time
As you guys know, I've been through a really rough time..
So much pain, so much lost, and so much suffering that me and the people around me have to go through..

I personally lost my best friend,
A guy that I see everyday
A guy that went to the same primary school with me
A guy that went to the same high school with me
A guy that went to the same academy with me
Someone that I know for 13 years
And without me noticing it, he has always been the best friend deep in my heart

Every time there's a quiz or anything with questions like, "write a friend's (male) name that come to your mind," and no doubt that would be you..

Life's really hard for me now..
Things changed
I have so much to worry about
And I really wanna fulfill everything that he ever wanted

This blog has so much memory of us together
And I'm gonna make it alive again..

I miss you my friend..
I miss you.. Kiat..

Rest In Peace..

Life's really tough for me right now
I lost my closest friend, Vaz
And he's not coming back anymore

It just hurts so much to lose a best friend
Someone that I see everyday
Things will not be the same anymore without you, friend
Things are so quiet and cold
I realize that
You're actually the one that always hype everyone up
And now you're gone
Everything's so cold

I lost so much motivation without you
Do you remember our dreams?
We were planning to start a salon of our own
We were planning to play music together
But what can I do now?
I don't wanna do this alone

I'm really sorry
Maybe I wasn't a good friend
I always showed my anger when you did something wrong
But if there's another chance
I'd definitely smile that you're still here doing those things

At this moment
I really realize that there aren't much in life
Life's simple when the people you love are around

I miss you so much
Can you feel it?
Are you at somewhere far away?

快点回来！

请大家帮我的好朋友, Vaz 祈祷
让他早点回到我们身边

快醒来啊，陈世杰！
快回来！
加油
我知道你能听到我们在帮你加油打气的
不要让我们失望！
大家都很支持你，一直都在你身边帮你祈祷
快醒来，度过这个难关
我们知道你能的！
千万不要放弃！

快回来！

Hold on

My buddy , Vaz is in the hospital right now
Let us all pray for him
Hold on & Stay strong
And wake up
For us
...

Sunday Morning

Hey guys
Sorry for not updating for this past few days
My life's kinda boring
And I'm facing emotional breakdown :P

It's Sunday today and yes I will be home today . (Yes seriously)
Maybe watching DVDs, or playing Champions Online.
+ I'm gonna watch lots and lots of DotA replays
Because I have an upcoming competition on March
And there's a big chance we can go very far, so I don't wanna miss this chance
But last night I already lost 3 matches
Due to the fact that I haven't touch DotA for weeks
Long way to catch up!

Oh yeah
Yesterday I went to a friend's house to do some kind of Disney music mashup for their performance
It was really fun, I mean maybe it was something that has to do with music :)
But I kinda suck :(
For unable to figure out chords that quickly
Have to give my ears some training so they can be really really sensitive

By the way
Am I really turning into Ah Beng !?
I don't know where I got this from but I really do feel like I'm some kind of low-class ah beng guy + all negative things some more.
What's wrong with meeeeeeeeeeeee
FML if I become one

Gonna stop right here
Next post I'll promise some pictures!
.... hopefully.

Tata

P/S. What is wrong with my chatbox?? Grr

Sick ~ 哎哟！

Yay another Chinese post！

今天没去 Rigi II~
因为又生病了~ 唉~
有时真的觉得自己很老牙咯~
一点点就生病！
感觉到自己好弱哦~~弱者 Lon ~~　Ｔ＿Ｔ



身体生病就不要经了，最近心也好像生病了～
都感觉怪怪的．．．　
好像很多烦恼
不知道我真正要的是什么

有个冲动想放弃做头发
好像做些需要灵感的东西　＋　有自由的事
想到我头都要爆了啦。。



其实大家都应该知道我真正的梦想，真正想做的是玩音乐吧？
可是这条路太难走了．．
又没有保证的未来
搞不好以后真的是吃草啊．．　

我的团友也不太有玩了
我想这个梦想是不可能能实现的了

Ｂｙ　Ｒａｂｂｉｔ:D

最近又烦该不该做那个 Score A~~
你们觉得怎样哦？
能做吗？
唉~ 做得好的话，我的愿望梦想都可以实现的哦！
但是我听好多人都说没那么容易哦，再加上我觉得好像很不适合我叻。。
我个性这么静，有那么被动，怎样去找人哦？
可是我又很想试试看~~
怎么办哦？

哈哈，
为了我梦想的人生，我真的是烦了不少
我觉得还是顺其自然吧？
可是有时我又觉得要自己努力才能争取我们自己想要的东西
对吗？

让我为我自己加油吧~~！

GOGOGOGOGO!!

Officially back ! =.=v

So I just got back my computer last night
And the guy told me it was my wire problem
That's why I couldn't open my computer
Grr

Some bad news
I'm not gonna write about my China / Hong Kong trip
Because there's too many photos
And too many things to write
8 days somemore
Sorry people :(

But I'm just gonna upload some of my photos when I was in Hong Kong to redeem myself :P
Hopefully it works XD

I kinda like this photo :P

Me in my sexy leather jacket =.=v

Feeling vain in the morning
Maybe because I breath in too much HK air :P

Me and Albert Einstein :P

Back from HK but ~

Hey guys
Just wanna give a short update

I'm actually back from my Hong Kong already
But it was really a memorable trip

When I just got back , guess what I did?
I was rushing to my computer
Turning everything on
And realized that my com is dead
Damn it
My computer is in the hospital right now
That's why I can't online that much

Right now I'm using my brother's computer
Sigh~
Com please come back
I need you

:( !

Oh
And
Happy Valentines :P !

Going to Hong Kong (Short Update!)

Hey guys
I'll be going to Hong Kong in like 27 more hours
And I won't be able to use computer for like a week?
Because I'm coming back on next Friday~
Ugh! Won't be able to go visiting anymore

And I won't be able to update my facebook or this blog
Sorry people
But there's a chance that I could get myself a laptop there :P

Take care guys
Happy Chinese New Year!
Drive safe and have fun!

Oh and I'm gonna miss her
Won't be able to text :( !

Weekends! [28.1.2011] & [29.1.2011]

[28.1.2011]

Aahh that day was suppose to be a short outing
But ended up spending the whole day outside ... doing crap! hahaha

Had our lunch with Wendy, Christina and their friends at Life Cafe
Picked everyone with my almighty Alza, full house lol!
Spent like 2hours there due to some reason
Then guess where we go next?

One Jaya ~
OMGOSH NOT AGAIN??? WTFF
But yes
Went there and spent the whole afternoon there
Some really priceless moment! Unfortunately no pictures or video! >
Lots of silly things done by them
Seriously laughing can be really tiring when you're NOT laughing at things that make sense
Btw I'm hunted by a *Cough* guy *Cough*
Not going to write too much about it though

Went to umm I don't know what is it called but in Chinese it's called 新公园 ( I think ) next
It was around 6pm
Sunset time! Weeeeeeeeeee
The coziness :3
But the walking and the sweat ruined it~ Damn!

Some pictures in the playground

My model for this blog ==!
bo bien mah~ He likes to take picture! hahaha

Standing high makes them looked awesome ==

Monkey

Getting his "baby" bitten again

Ahh the KL memories! haha
Animals just love his meat :P First it was camel now it's a buaya

And this is us saving Vaz from the evil buaya

Ahh I know we're lame
But boredom made us do everything

Some random walking picture


Look at the nice environment :P

Went back when the night was getting dark
Btw the park is haunted omg

Had our dinner
Blah blah blah
Then we were planning to go to Vaz's house and taste his homemade food
But the guard refused to let us in when we reached the house
Duh~ So ended up going to Dui's house + Eating biscuits from Vaz





[29.1.2011]
(Aiyo a bit lazy want write liaw, gonna make this shorter )
SATURDAY
Went out with my darling :)
K-Box
Just me and her
Walao my voice kept on cracking last night
She kept laugh at me
But seriously I didn't eat , that's why! *Cough*!

Allen them come over to meet me when Yinggy went home
We watched the movie Shaolin
A really meaningful movie
Some really touching scene too
I recommend it :D

Superstar ^^

Haha was too bored so ended up doing crap again while Allen was busy queuing in the line at Ta Kiong~

Went down to the carpark level
Discussed some plan and ended up going to cyber and finished the night
Uhh~!

Dui: 我会像蜻蜓吗？？
DIAN JI!

Update ~

I just bought this yesterday
Okay or not this 1?
Actually got people told me to get Sutra or something~ I don't know how to spell it
The one Justin Bieber is wearing
But duhh I don't really like that kind of shoes maybe
And it's for dancers :P
I'm a ROCKER LOL
So ahem I'll just stick with Converse :)

Last night went out again without any plans
I'm really sorry for someone :(
But uhh just wanna share last night with everyone

Once again we went to One Jaya
But this time with a purpose of cause
Allen wanted to buy some shirts :)
Actually there were some shirts I really like, I mean the cuting
But I don't really like the pattern on it ~_~

2 epic stare at the mirror

I really love this picture haha
Don't know why
Looked so cute :D
And don't you guys agree that Dui looked so hot with that hairstyle?
The right guy~
Seriously I think he looked so sexy with that hairstyle
But unfortunately he just did rebonding today
Sorry no pictures! :(
No more sexy spiky funky looking hair !

And ... And... Next

Dui's drunken pose

We went to Travilion after that
Nothing special about it though
It was empty, we were the only one there XD

Oh yeah there's a video which shows Dui and Vaz dancing on the empty dance floor and its really priceless
Imagine 2 guys getting high(well, not really) on the dance floor + the club is empty
Haha but I don't think I'm gonna upload the video here
Ask from me personally :P

Not gonna write more for now
And I'm actually eating while writing this

My mom's homemade chicken rice!

Yummy :D
Nom nom nom
Tata guys!

Cherish Every Moment.

Life is very fragile,
We never know what could happen next
And it is true we'll never know what might happen the next minute

A brother of my friend just passed away 2 days ago
He faced a really tragic death
I don't really know him, and we never really speak to each other
But I still remember the smile on his face when he last smiled to me
And now he's gone

The world doesn't even know about this man
All they know about is how he died
But I know this man
And everything that he did, is gone just like that

This is a big big world
Everyone has a life, their own stories.
Do you guys realize that?
Everyone that pass us by has their own stories
Their own feelings and their own pain

Sometimes we just have to close our eyes
And feel
That we're only a small part of something really really big
And that's the world

We complain our lives when something go wrong
We feel like it's the end of the world when something just don't go our way
We cry about how we don't wanna live anymore
But look at the world
We're just what people called "people"

No one really knows our stories
Everyone lives in their own world
Everyone has their own life

Sometimes when we really feel like it's the end of the world
Just remember that we still have our life
There are a lot of unlucky people that really hope that they could live to see another day
And they never know that it was their last

Cherish every moment
Every person you love
And everything you do

Life is too fragile to be wasted.

Weekdays again :O

Sorry English readers
I thought maybe I should do something for the Chinese readers so this post will be in Chinese :P

大家好！ 哈哈
其实我今天也过得蛮普通的
也没什么好些
但是没办法啊，要写点东西不然我怕我一下子就对这个blog冷掉了~

又是星期一了
周末好快就过去了
又要早醒了~ 唉~~ 好累哦~ 哈哈
以前我每次都 7 点起床
后来变 8 点~
现在 9 点才起床了~ 好懒哦。。
最近去 Rigi 也没有弄头发~ 好像越来越 "loot" liaw! haha

有一个冲动要剪短我头发咯
不知道为什么~ 哈哈
有可能是因为我没弄我头发的时候真的是好乱啊~
乱到 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 爆！
但是应该也不可能会去剪的啦~

其实今天真的真的是没什么特别咯~ 哈哈
我的生活不是每天都那么 wonderful 的~
虽然我很想每天都是那样的完美
但是人啊~~ 就是很多东西要做， 要烦， 不能每天都做自己想要做的事~
哈哈

我也差不多罗索完了啦~
eh~ 写话语蛮难一下咯~
谁可以教教我的中文啊？
>＜

22.1.2011 Saturday!

Just a short update for you guys
I'm writing this early in the morning so I'm a little lazy :X Sorry!

Yesterday went out with Allen, Sterling, Dui and Vaz~ The same old gang
+ Sarah and her friends were suppose to come
In the end they didn't show up though
But still we had fun :D (me at least ==)

Went for the movie "Homecoming"
Not the type of movies that will make you ROFLMAO but it's a really fun movie with a very simple plot. And some touching moment :P
Actually the really funny part is the HK Accent in the movie, maybe it's because Allen always use that kind of accent to joke around so we find it extremely funny something we always listen show up in a movie XD

Went to k-box after that
6-8pm~ RM8 each person
Not really special until she showed up :)

Left Spring at around 7.45pm and went to Allen's house
Bought some Maggie Mees~ I don't know why but it was delicious lol
Maybe because I was hungry ><

Went to Mars Cyber after that
And DotA to end the night ==

Not really a special Saturday
But ahh just wanna update something to keep my blog alive :P

Another Wandering Night [20.1.2011]

Last night we brought Shilly for an interview at One Jaya (Yes AGAIN!)
Wasn't really planning to go home late, but *Cough* we ended up going home kinda late again >_>

Seriously I really did feel like telling everyone in One Jaya that we were bringing friend for an interview lol!
The workers there must be wondering why are we there everytime seriously
+ One Jaya is really small! Not enough places for us to wander too ><

Anyway after wandering around for like 1hour+ while waiting for Shilly to done her interview, we went to 101 for "dinner" :P
Oh!
THE BEST PART ABOUT LAST NIGHT IS THAT
MR.DUI TREAT US MEAL WITHOUT COMPLAINING FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME ! XD
I don't know what's up with him but seriously I was very surprised :O

Went to Friendship Park after that ~
We reached there around 11pm -_-
Someone refused to go home yet lol
And Vaz did us some modeling photo

Ta-Dah!

Actually this is not the only one, but I refuse to put too many of his photos on my blog
Don't want him to get all the attention XD

Allen suddenly run electric and sing a song called "当我们同在一起 " (A Children Song)
Sang together for some minute until I realized that it's kinda disturbing =.=
I told them it would be very creepy if this kind of song suddenly come out while we're trying to sleep. With the "disturbing" lyrics too XD
Ended up talking some disturbing stuff .. again ==

Realized that it was a bad idea talking about ghost in the middle of the night + nobody's there already. We were like the only ones left there
So we did something with the shadow while... mocking... someone... with..
this..

If you're reading this
Forgive me! XD
And yes you know who you are :P

Not much things to do after that
Took some picture of Dui again
because he just love taking pictures


And you can see his imba twist hair
And.. Some dian ji covering her face xD

Went home after that
And we noticed a girl sitting alone at one of the pondok there
Yes literally alone! And she was there for like 1hour + already
Having some problem or something
Vaz wanted to ask what's wrong with her actually
But then we just gave up the idea

Oh and did you guys look at the moon last night?


Aduh! Not clear enough
Let me explain
That's the moon that everyone knows right?
Then there was like a bigger white circle thingy surrounding it
Like an aura or something
And I don't know it's from who but he called it "God's Eye"
Hmm! The power of supernatural!

Sorry if this post is messy
I was kinda rushing it
Tata people >

New Year New Hairstyle ?

So it's Chinese New Year and everyone is busy buying clothes and stuff.
And yes of cause the students in my hair academy is busy styling/perming and colouring their hair too~
Including me of cause XD

My teacher actually asked me to do some kind of Volume Perm that can really spike up the hair
But then I still chose to bleach my hair
Maybe it's because I still didn't really have fun with it ... yet! :)


This is how I looked like after the first bleach
Going to bleach more tomorrow


Looked yucky isn't it? Thanks to *Cough* Vaz and Dui *Cough*
I shall looked beautiful again after my next bleach.. hopefully lol

Vaz did the so-called Volume Perm that I was talking about early
Note that it's not called Volume Perm, I just don't know the English name of it lol
Here's some picture of how it looked like and how I WOULD looked like if I listened to my teacher :D

The Sexy Me Behind :P


That Vaz ar refused to stay still while I took his picture Nge nge talk ==! so I uploaded this one while he was talking :P

And then here comes the almighty "Twist Perm" that Dui go for.
Basically we take the hair and twist twist twist and put on the "stabilizer" to keep that kind of shape.

This is how he looked like during the process
Don't mind the "hamsap" face :O
Ohh and by the way, the people called it "cucuk perm" or something too lol, just look at the foil on his hair :P

And this is the result :)

Looked .. uhh funky ?
Suits him anyway :D

Hopefully next bleach for me will be... successful !
tata people

Constructing The Site

Aahhh
Seriously I don't know how do I edit my theme~
Spent hours trying to figure out how blog skins work
But is it true that I can only apply my skins when I'm using classic template?
But then I have no idea how to add gadgets!
><

Just finished editing it with the simplest way though~
If I still don't know how to apply nice and ahhh beautiful skin then I'd just stick with this 1 =.=v

Stay tune !